Between getting dressed in the early dark of summer mornings and putting herself to bed before the sun sets Boo is thriving. She lost a tooth, fell in love with the idea of owning a rabbit, flew in an airplane, jumped, swam, rode, hiked, and so much more. And yes, mostly she is "gym-ed".
Last night on social media I unintentionally set off several discussions. One was about whether Boo was being held back by not skipping levels, another came from different 2 points across the country questioning the safety and long term effects of her training, and the third from a friend asking if this life is fair for any of us.
I am too tired to fully explain because this driving gym taxi, stressing over $, plotting high gear nutrition, schedules, meets, levels, judges, skills, icing, injuries, leos, and hair.... are not my normal.
I will say, these kids are not happy or even okay without gym, without challenge, without work. During the school year they work out 4 hrs a day and almost every single one of them is a 4.0 student most with AP or honors classes.
If it wasn't gym it would have been something else. Their drive and passion is not something I can accurately explain. Their drive and passion is a picture words can't paint.
All I know is my job as this kid's mom is to raise the kid while respecting the athlete. Her coaches job, to raise the athlete while respecting the kid. Her job is to be her.
Last week she told me her job hurts. I spend the next 18 hrs waging a loosing battle for a day off. When she refused to stay home I drove her to gym for her 5 hr work day. When I picked her up she said, "I had the best day. I am so glad I didn't skip." And I am so glad at least one of knows what we are doing!
That flick flick on high beam is the result of her constant daily work ethic. It comes from inside her. It has nothing to do with me or what I would want.
Being her isn't always easy. Being so big in such a small body is hard. Being a little giant's mom was never my grand plan. I'm tired of the stress but she isn't anywhere near done. I can't answer all the questions but perhaps I am learning I don't have to- turns out it's not my job.